Today was meltdown day. It started this morning when I hurriedly tried a new juicing recipe. (Note to self: hurrying and new are not a tasty combination.) As I raced toward the door, I threw the juice for Dave and me into containers and into a cooler. It smelled putrid and looked even worse.
I delivered the juice to Dave and he was equally enamored (not!) with its appearance. A few moments later, settled in front of my computer and ready to start my workday, I lifted the lid and was overwhelmed by the smell – make that stench. I was so hungry, I took a few sips as tears rolled down my cheeks. I had rushed and worked so hard for this miserable concoction. That’s when the monkey-mind kicked into high gear saying, “I can’t do this. I can’t do this . . . ” over and over again. Which, of course, made me feel even more pathetic.
I threw the juice out, sent Dave a text warning him, grabbed a handful of nuts and grapes and made some chai (which was amazingly tasty after the juice).
That was meltdown #1.
But wait! There’s more . . .
I got back home ~ 2pm with a very empty stomach and very messed up kitchen.
In my haste, I had left the juicer uncleaned and in the sink. Now was clean up time. I lost it again. I was so hungry but the pitta in me wouldn’t let the kitchen go messy one more moment. As I scrubbed the juicer’s private parts, the tears came again. Commence with meltdown #2. With each exertion of elbow grease, the voice in my head came back louder and louder. But to my surprise this time it said, “I can do this. I can do this . . . ” over and over again.
Progress? Possibly.
Insanity? Definitely!
Today’s menu
Breakfast
- Inedible juice made with kale, celery, cucumber, apple, bananas, ginger (folks, don’t try this at home)
- Grapes & almonds
- Chai Rooibus (which I still find hard to get down)
Lunch
- Kitchari – new batch, not so bad; either I’m getting better at it or I’m getting hungrier
- Watermelon
Dinner
- More kitchari
- More watermelon
- 3 pieces of veggie sushi with brown rice and Bragg’s
- 3 dates and 3 figs
Tomorrow we are attempting quinoa. Wish us luck!
So sorry yesterday was so tough. I’ve had days like that (fortunately not on this detox), and they’re no fun.
But the good news is that days like that do end, after the (seemingly VERY long) usual 24 hours, and the day after is always better.
Hang tough, Sally — you ABSOLUTELY can do this!
Hey there sweet pea – I’m really good at cooking quinoa (or so I’m told) so if this is a new thing for you and you want some tips, email me! I’m wishing you a delicious day! xo Sari
That would be GREAT! Thanks!